YOU

Do you remember the moonlit night
When you used to hold me tight?
I used to play with your earring
And loved to hear you sing.
The mesmerizing smell of your hair
So distinct and so rare.
The willful blinking of your eyes
So mystic and so nice.
I could feel the softness of your lips
And the swinging of your hips.
I dared the strange force between us
And cozy hours we used to pass.

Can we turn back time
And talk about sweet silly feelings?
Can we turn back time
And get some emotional healing?

Do you remember Millennium Park
When you used to hold me in the dark?
I used to play with your hands,
You used to dream of distant lands.
The mildness of your face
The sweetness and its grace.
The softness of your voice
Eclipsed all other noise.
I can feel the softness of your breast

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And the strange r************l of wave crest.
I could feel the rare chemistry between us
And wondered how fast time used to pass.

Can we turn back the clock
And spend some time playing together?
Can we turn back the clock
And spend some time loving each other?

REALISATION

I stand so close to her
But can’t really touch her heart.
So close to the other side of the river
But can’t really get there.
Look silently into the sky
And find no birds fly.
I wonder what I am doing there
With no thoughts in my mind.
I think I am loosing it all again
Can’t help myself going insane.

Is there anyone who can help me?
Who can show me the light,
The light I have never seen before.
The light I’ll ask for more.

I stand with my eyes closed
Just to see the naked truth.
So close to my soul
But can’t really know myself.
Look silently into the sky
And find no stars shine.
I wonder where all my tears have gone
Still no thoughts in my mind.
I think I am loosing it all again
Can’t help myself going insane.

Is there anyone who can help me?
Who can take me higher,
The high I have never achieved before.
The high I’ll seek for more.

I stand with my eyes wide open
Just to see if I can see.
So close to the truth
But dare not bare it.
I look deep inside me
And find the faceless child.
I wonder what is he doing there
With no other child by his side.
I think I have found it all again
I think I can ease the pain.

Is there anyone who needs help?
Who wants to see the light,
The light he has never seen before.
The light he’ll ask for more.

SHATTERED EMOTIONS

I sold my mind to temptations
Got carried away with burning passion.
I sold my heart for no reason
My conscience held for treason.
I stand without you, shattered.
With my words unuttered.
I stand in the rain, confused.
I feel humiliated and abused.
I stand under the sun, puzzled.
Body scorched and eyes dazzled.
I stand and see colors, faded.
My spirits low and jaded.
I stand without ground beneath my feet, dreaming.
And I hear myself screaming.
I stand in the seashore, lost.
As if I am six feet under the frost.
I stand with my head held high
I wish I could fly.
But with my wings broken, my spirits shaken;
I know I can fly no more.
I know I can stand no more.

ONE SILLY MISTAKE

Back to the college days
I still feel my heavy heartbeat.
Her little presence,
And I get cold feet.
Her little presence,
And I run out of speech.
Her little presence,
And I run into a ditch.

Back to the college days
She is trying to talk to me.
The three little words,
That was never set free.
The three little words,
Got eclipsed by the chorus.
The three little words,
Lost in the space between us.

Back to the college days
And I can still see her face.
One silly mistake,
And she left without a trace.
One silly mistake,
I still could not get it right.
One silly mistake,
That haunts me day and night.

Back to the college days
I still remember her liquid eyes.
One silly mistake,
And she left saying good bye.
One silly mistake,
That turned me upside down.
One silly mistake,
And I was the lonely guy in town.

A DIFFERENT GAME

I am walking down the blind lane
Trying to play a different game.
A game where I can only loose
Nomatter whichever path I chose.
A game with only snakes and no ladders.
A game where I loose everything I gather.
But I keep walking, keep playing a different game
Because I know it’ll never be the same.

I am walking against the wind flow
Waiting for the light to glow.
With a different game on my mind
I see darkness of all kind.
A game where dogs eat dog.
A game where sun is faded by the fog.
But I keep walking, keep playing a different game
Because I know it’ll never be the same.

TRY AGAIN

Standing still in the fast lane
I get no reasons to explain.
I see people running free
And my shadow running away from me.
The clock is ticking away
But I have no wish to pray.
The road ahead seems narrow
And I see no sign of tomorrow.
I feel lonely and cold
My face seems ugly and old.

But I try, I try, I try again
Try helplessly to ease the pain.
I rise, I fall, but try again.
Try helplessly, I try in vain.

Standing still in the riverside
My sorrows overflowing, no space to hide.
I see the water running free
And accept notions I disagree.
I do things I should not do
As if I am struck by a black voodoo.
The night seems darker and unnatural
I find no sign of revival.
I remember I was once bold
But now I am blindfold.


But I try, I try, I try again
Try helplessly to ease the pain.
I rise, I fall, but try again.
Try helplessly, I try in vain.

NOT IN TOWN

I am staring at the window and my mind on the moon;
I woke up in the morning, but now its almost noon;
I got up from the bed, but dont know what to do;
Had a cup of coffee listening to the radio;
I am feeling so jaded, cause my girl in not in town;
I m missing her badly, and that's why I am so down;

I am so down......down, down, down,....cause my girl is not in town

I went to the office but slept away the day;
Boss called me up and said "howbout a month without a pay"?
I tried to pull me up and got my work done;
But it was almost night before I finally return;
I am feeling so jaded, cause my girl in not in town;
I m missing her badly, and that's why I am so down;

I am so down......down, down, down,....cause my girl is not in town

I tried to call her Up just to say I love her;
Her mom picked up the phone And my words disappear;
Now I am having my dinner with soup and some meat;
I wish she was here to share the food a bit;
I am feeling so jaded, cause my girl in not in town;
I m missing her badly, and that's why I am so down;

I am so down......down, down, down,....cause my girl is not in town

Riot

No one to trust
No hands to hold
No feelings for outburst
People are cold

Nowhere to go
No where to lurk
Running to and fro
in the dark

Demons have spoken out
Riots have broken out
Demons are crying loud
Putting faith in doubt

Brother are killed
Graves are filled
Mothers died
Children cried

Only a blood feast
Running at its best
Humanity goes lame
In this killing game

Demons have spoken out
Riots have broken out
Demons are crying loud
Putting faith in doubt

Will the sun shine again and take away the fears?
Will the rain come down and wash away the tears?
Will the moon shine again and heal the burning wounds?
Will it be a silent planet where children play around?

Help me!!

It's darkness all around me and I am crawling on the floor
I open my eyes and try to look for the exit door
Dry blood is all I could feel as I stare at the ceiling
I am so scared, so scared, I never had this feeling.

I cant remember how long I've been lying out here
I am all alone and suddenly I have that strange fear.
I want to run away but the door is closed now
No, I cant die here, I have to get up somehow.


Somebody please help me. I am dying out here.
Somebody please help me. I am crying out of fear.
Somebody please help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Strange creatures are running over me giving a taste of hell
I wish I could stand up, stand up to come out of this spell
I try to remember my Name and I know I am too young to die
I dont deserve it and I wish I could ask god "Why".

The door bangs open and I see her behind the shadow
I can see the vengeance in her eyes as she says "die john die".
I can see the gun shining in her hand as she aims at me.
Now I remember, remember the bitter twists of destiny

Somebody please help me. I am dying out here.
Somebody please help me. I am crying out of fear.
Somebody please help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Death!!!!!

I have gone to extremes
No one hears my screams
Walking through the rocky road
I find my sweet abode

Sunny days are gone
And I am all alone
Walking through the barren lands
I watch my hazy hands

I have lost all I had
No, no, It's not sad
I am walking, No one knows
Thing comes and thing goes

My body cant read my mind
My legs stumble behind
Walking through the scattered sand
I falter on the wonderland

My eyes cant feel the light
It's half dark and half bright
Floating on a fairy boat
I submit to my chocked throat.

I have lost all I had
No, no, It's not sad
I am dying, No one knows
Man comes and man goes

It's May, 1998

My face kisses the drizzling droplets of rain as I sit beside the window
Floating clouds calling me to join the merry making with the rainbow
My wings are broken long back and I know I cant fly like a hawk
The room has confined me for years as my legs are not strong enough to walk

The irresistible desire to fly has died young because all I could do was dreaming
The table in the corner, the bed and this room are all who heard me screaming
Year after year I lived on my dreams even if I knew they will never come true
Time has flown right by me and I wonder if I could ever clear life's overdue

My view to this world has been narrowed down to the window beside me
Grave faces running around, rain droplets and the blue sky is all I could see
I could see little children playing, running and screaming with innocent ecstasy
I wonder if any one of them would be me in bitter twist of destiny

It's May, 1998 and I look through my only view like any other day
Kids playing around leaving one of them behind to be the castaway
I wonder what's wrong with that little soul and why is he sitting alone
After much observation I realised his leg has got a crippled bone

I saw the unbelievable enthusiasm in him as I noticed his efforts to stand up
To my surprise he stood up, tried to hit the ball but fell down in a tossup.
He desperately tried to reach for the ball as he crawled on his knee
Now I know one thing for sure, he wont be me, he wont be me.